“I think it’s some kind ofpsychiatric disorder when youhave more than one personalityin your head. That’s what it feelslike when I walk home. The twoMelinda’s fight every step of theway” (Anderson 132).
Because Melinda doesn't havethe other basic needs, shedoesn't have survival. This iswhy she gets depressed. Shedoesn't know how to surviveanymore.
"I open up a paper clip and scratch itacross the inside of my left wrist.. If asuicide attempt is a cry, then what is this?A whimper, a peep?" (Anderson, 87)
Melina didn't feel like anyonewould care or believe that shewas raped. Therefore, she didn'tspeak up about it. She felt like noone would be there for her.
"Mother: 'She's jerking us around to getattention.’ Me: [inside my head] Would youlisten? Would you believe me? Fat chance.”(Anderson, 144)
it didn't matter what happened to her
All of Melinda's old friends stop talkingto her. They all had a group where theybelonged except her.
"IT" or Andy Evans has left amark of himself with Melinda.This mark is what made herwho she is throughout thenovel, reserved, lost, andfrightened.
"It feels like the Prince ofDarkness has swept his cloakover the table. The lights dim. Ishiver." (Anderson, 90)
"I am a deer frozen in theheadlights... Is he going to hurtme?... Why can't I scream, saysomething, do anything? Whyam I so afraid?" (Anderson,161)
Melinda knew she had areputation because she calledthe cops that night. Peopledidn't like her afterwards.
"'Aren't you the girl who called the cops at KyleRodger’s party at the end of the summer?’”(Anderson, 27)
“‘My brother got arrested at that party… I can’tbelieve you did that. A--hole.’” (Anderson, 28)
"...and here I am in the middle of a hostile crowdthat hates me for what I had to do." (Anderson,28)
"‘I can't believe you. You're jealous.You're a twisted little freak and you'rejealous that I'm popular and I'm goingto the prom and so you lie to me likethis. And you sent me that note, didn'tyou? You are so sick’" (Anderson 184).
Melinda's parent never show they careabout her. The only way she couldcommunicate them was through stickynotes.
Melinda was best friends with Rachel.Until Melinda called the police the nightof the party. They stopped talking afterthis.
Melinda #1 stopped Melinda fromhaving fun
When Melinda blocked out anyfriendship, she blocked out fun evenmore. You have more fun with yourfriends
" ' You do remember fun, don'tyou?' Nope. I don't do parties.No thanks" (Anderson, 131)
Melinda avoided having any fun. She didn'twant to repeat what had happened that night
FREEDOM
Seeing freedom you may think,"Melinda had her freedom." She didphysically, but not mentally.
"Sometimes the chains that prevent usfrom being free are more mental thanphysical." -anonymous
Melinda #1 and #2 were like her split self ina battle between each other. There is nofreedom in this state since there is alwaysunrest.
Being raped held her back. She had mentalchains on.
chains like these... but not literally
DEPRESSION
"It is easier not to say anything. Shutyour trap, button your lip, can it. Allthat crap you hear on TV aboutcommunication and expressing feelingsis a lie. Nobody really wants to hearwhat you have to say." (Anderson 9)
DEPRESSION = :( NO FREEDOMDUE TO SOCIALWALLS
Why is this related to FUN? Withdepression, it is hard to experienceactual fun.
Why is this related to FREEDOM?Due to the fact that she was raped,she had some mental walls in herlife.
Melinda's life is not being lived in a good way.She may be alive, but she is not thriving. It is nothealthy to live the way she was.
THE CONNECTION
All of the 5 basic needs are connected in away, but they all come back to survival.
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